ladyfalcon

I don't think I mentioned that I am applying to programs for international relations/political science. One of my (many) problems is that I am interested in many things AND I don't have a very clear view of where I want to go in life. I don't have a 'dream job,' I just have a shopping list of things I would like any job to have, such as: something where I can travel, make enough money that I can live comfortably, prefer not to take work home after the work day is done, prefer to work in Europe if possible (better benefits, better vacations), etc. Unfortunately I feel that such a generic list is going to lead to me doing some work that is "beneath my abilities," whatever that means. I would like do do work that is meaningful, but defining what exactly that means is becoming difficult. Add to that the fact that I am not very decisive (my biggest fear is making a decision I can't go back on and thus closing paths for myself), and you basically have a big mess.

I am always impressed with people like you who are not only academically talented and dedicated, but also able to make decisions. I mean, those decisions change (I remember when you were in high school and planning to concentrate on outsider art academically), but you are at least able to make them, whereas I spend so much time wittering about it that I tend to close doors to myself just by being indecisive.